Tuesday, February 7, 2012

"I Didn't Sign Up for This"

Maybe these are your words today.

"Lord, I didn't sign up for this!"

But the truth of it is... do we ever "sign up" for anything when we choose to follow Christ?


Within the last few weeks, my stomach problems have taken a rapid decline. So much so, that it has been keeping me at home, simply because I rarely can go out in public with the way I've been feeling. In all honesty, it's very humiliating. I never wanted to be one those "weak, sick people with health problems." I've told myself, "Be STRONG. You can handle it. You don't need any help." But reality is, my health problems are real and I don't feel good.

[I didn't sign up for this.]

Around two and a half years ago, I was heartbroken and deeply bruised when a relationship ended. I wept like I've never sobbed before; my lap was literally SOAKED from tears. "God, it wasn't supposed to be like this. Why did I have to be rejected for another young woman?"

[I didn't sign up for this.]

Joseph didn't sign up for the circumstances that God gave him either.

Did you ever think about Joseph's reality? His father had 2 wives & 2 concubines, Joseph's (blood) mother died when he was just a young boy, his older brothers SOLD him into a FOREIGN country, he spent years in prison after being falsely accused. So how did he make it? How did he survive the suffering? He KNEW the God of his fathers & He kept his eye on the promise of God.

"As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good." Genesis 50:20

As Nancy Leigh DeMoss put it, "The outcome of our lives is not determined by what happens to us, but by how we respond to what happens to us."

Have we only made a bargain with God for his "stuff"?
Or are we committed to Christ, regardless of the cost, in order to make much of & glorify His name?

My favorite hymn ever since I was a young girl has been, "Take My Life & Let it Be" and my eyes still get damp with a tear every time I sing it.

Take my life, and let it be
Consecrated, Lord, to Thee.
Take my hands, and let them move
At the impulse of Thy love.
At the impulse of Thy love.

Take my feet, and let them be
Swift and beautiful for Thee.
Take my voice, and let me sing
Always, only, for my King.
Always, only, for my King.

Take my lips, and let them be
Filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold;
Not a mite would I withhold.
Not a mite would I withhold.

Take my will, and make it Thine;
it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own;
it shall be Thy royal throne.
it shall be Thy royal throne.

Take my love, my God, I pour
At Thy feet it's treasure store.
Take myself, and I will be
Ever, only, all for Thee
Ever, only, all for thee.

From the Archives: Garden of the Gods | September 25, 2009

1 comment:

Evangeline said...

God has a great plan for you , Leah.
That's one of my favorite songs too.